Below are the 3 most recent journal entries recorded in rave_star's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, May 26th, 2004
9:56 pm	Vision I feel a throbbing pulse in the back of my neck I begin to feel my heart beat faster and faster My anger has hit a new high There is no control of it anymore I hear screaming and shouting of loved one's below You come up the stairs and take a swing And i swing and put a blow to your head I hear the wood crack over your skull I wish i could have hit you harder To see you fall over on the floor with a hole in your head So i can watch the blood flow from your head onto the carpet and stain it red And watch as you spend the last minute's of your life bleeding to death I'm fucking sick of this I'm fucking tired of this All of this has become to real But as you hit me For me its painless I vision myself standing up on a bridge I look down and see the shallow water And the rocks that will be there but not to break my fall I picture myself standing up on the ledge With my arms spred wide and lean off I feel myself drifting down Slowly Slowly I fall I come closer to hitting the bottom Just as i used to hit the bottom of the bottle But all the drugs wont save me from myself My pain has been set free from my body My mind has been clear And my soul wich i used to have has been released And the only thing left of me Is my torn and tattered body that now floats down the river (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 20th, 2004
5:38 pm	The blood that drips I feel the cold razor rip through my skin I watch the red blood run down my cold pale skin I watch as the blood streams down faster With each drip of blood that drops I feel my pain go away As the blood falls into the sink I watch it But I do not blink Every second I waste here is another drip of blood down the sink The open wounds on my arm release everything I was born to hate There’s so much shit on my plate That I just cant finish So much that I cant deal anymore There’s so much we just give it away This life is a joke One big game And it is clear that I have lost So now I pay the cost I lay on the cold ceramic tiles I begin to feel myself go numb I feel my body get lighter I can feel that it is my time to leave this life But I do not leave anything behind This game is done And is at its end As my eyes shut I can feel them roll back into my head My life has come to its end With a slow painless death (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 17th, 2004
10:13 pm	1988-2003 Auguest 28th 2003 Was the day you were set free Free from all your pain But you still remain Mind, Body, Soul After all you had touched us all your smile had hit us all One way or another So now as i stand on this green grass at the end of your feet I look down at the ground and i see you buried 6 feet underground All i have running in my mind is that you are not there And you did not die. You are a thousand winds that blow You are the sunshine reflecting off of the window pane And you are the gentle autumn's rain. As it rains from the sky i think of you Rain is your symbol letting me know you are ok As the sun shines upon my face i feel as if someone is standing there beside me. And that person is you After all you are not here and you do not sleep I should not stand at your grave and i shall not weep For i am you as you are me we live as one in unity and we die as one being set free.... R.I.P (Comment on this)